I've got a reason to live; i dont wanna be in love.

Alright. I'm gonna get this out of my system. It's been too long alone with these stupid painful thoughts now.

I've come to realize over the past few years that I'm as normal as normal can be. Nah, not normal when it comes to general behaviour in the society where normalness is DEMANDED and NECESSARY, but abso-fucking-lutely normal when it comes to silly old messed up teenage emotions. Meaning to say, while for all these years I lived in the blissful notion that I was capable of NOT falling in love with someone who wasnt the perfect one, I was wrong. OH, so wrong. As it has happened to teenagers before, and will keep happening to teenagers till civilisation lasts, except to those who are able to, I dont know, CONTROL who they like i.e. are sensible and mature as I THOUGHT i was, people will FALL in PUPPY love, it WILL hurt and spoil some percent of their everday lives, it WILL force bitter tears out of their eyes, tears of jealousy when the rascal as much as flirts with other girlz, or tears of pain that he doesnt like them back or whatever. It WILL make people day dream ALL day long about him/her and it WILL make people show up late to school. It WILL make their attention spans towards physics and chemistry half of earlier, unless it is physics of the person's body or chemistry between the two lovers.

Damn fuckking it. I dont wanna be in love. It HURTS.

Now listening: I dont wanna be in love- Gud charlotte

Now reading: Jane Eyre- Charlotte Bronte

Now wanting: Emotional range of a teaspoon.

My skool's annual function

Heya peepz. ! So my annual fucntion is going on right now and by that I mean it's conducted for 2 days- today was the first, for people of middle and primary wings while tomorrow's gonna be the main thing. . .

well anyway Im wearin a sari. . . its not as bad as i thot it would be !! I look pretty, if other people are to be belived. anyway i hav a lot to be thankful for since EVERYTHING was arranged at the last moment. the outfit, i mean. mom was so angry last night cuz i had no sari to wear till the veyr last mo'. Had ta borrow it from a friend. Anyway . . . i AM a very big procratsinator. might make suffer some time so i'd better watch out. . .

anyway, damn Im gonna miss teh free periods we had during this tym. . .
specially when we went to the sit of the fucntion the whole day and practised ! ! not only was it fun, i could do a lot of interactions with a lot of people. . . some of which im gonna treasure till a long time into teh future !! ;)

anyhow we hav farwell soon for class 12th. letz see wot we do then.!

now listening to : teh wind howling like crazy outside
now reading: memoiers of a geisha
now wanting: tshirt. ;p and some sleep. im TIRED after a whole day of the fcuntion.!

see ya then.
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