15 reasons why you dont wanna be me

a series of unfortunate events has occured in the past 24 hours that makes me lose faith in humanity.

caution: this is not a very happy post. sod off if you dont like ungrateful teenagers whining.

1. my mom just lost her job. and why's that bad for me? because first off shes always been there for me cheering me up when i lost somehting and see her upset ( about something i agree she should be upset about) is not something i like.and it's not even her fault, they only took people from their own unit + 2 ppl who were in the firm for years (experince helps) she'd only joined last year so yeah.

and 2nd, well there's something i cant tell you. lets call it IFG. well, her losing her job resulted into IFG. and i HATE it.

2. people are being evil. i just came to know about the ending of a fab movie i was dying to see (it's not everyday I wanna see a movie, believe me.) and when i got mad at the person they just laughed and told me about another person who dies in the movie. -_- very funny. go develop a sense of humour before you face the world.

3. well, the sun. it was so awesoemly windy till 3:59 pm today. grey skies and a cool wind is the only weather yours truly likes, and so i was excited to actually step out of me house and go to coaching classes {3 hours of them, too. so u understand how being excited about them is a novelty}. anyway, at PRECISELY 4 o clock, the sun came out. not the dull, warmish sun that makes me think of hogwarts (go figure.) but HARSH, SIZZLING HOT sun that can make iron evaporate. even then i decided against beggin my parents not to go to coaching and went down to my garage only to find my cycle was punctured. badly.. another reason not to go. but i went up {AGAIN.} and told my dad and he decided to drop me by car. instead of letting me be.

4. a major end-of-the-term feast was going to take place on this website of harry potter. i had contributed to the preparation by spending hours on the net making graphics, composin playlists and what not. well i thought the feast was supposed to be on 27th july. WRONG. i checked out the website on 30th june only to note i'd missed all the fun 3 days ago. *(^#&*^#&$%^&#$%^#$^%#$

5. i can only tolerate parents bickering for so long.

6. my grandma. okie so you're gonna gasp and splutter but i do not like her invading my privacy. she intervenes in EVERYTHING.

7. my exams are only about 15 days away. hey wait thats almost half a month but whatever. 4 chapters of organic chemistry will be the death of me.

8. bad hair day today. coudlnt find my rubber band. took hours to tie hair into a ...whatever its called.

9. my jaw is paining. my braces have sharp needle points that hurt me at points i didnt even know existed.

10. my only friend in this town who helps me get through school is "sick" or so she says and therefore isnt coming to school..( it's awfuler than it sounds.)

11. did i actually reach the 10th point!?!?!?! reason enuff to be sad.

12. my internet is being a bastard today. orkut/facebook wont open so i'm making this list.

13===> is supposed to be haunted.

14. mom just told me to get my ass off the computer. orkut still hasnt opened.

15. i think i'll go now

now listening to: boom boom pow (i hate this song so much)
now reading: far from the madding crowd
now wanting: nirvana

and to think i'd never love kids..

guess what people! my cousin brothers been blessed with a baby boy!

when i first heard of the news , i wasnt nearly as excited as you'd expect me to me. "great" was what i said when told of the news, while my insides screamed "yeah, whatever!!!"

but today my bro sent me akshaj's {yep, thats him} pics and i fell in love with the little devil at first sight. oh GAWD, he is so ADORABLE. people who know me know im not the kind to go gaga and "aww" over babies, but oh, this is so related to me ... ! and the baby is so friggin KEEYUTE. to witness something like this...ahh! this is the first time a baby's actually born in my family with me being big enough to understand.

LOVE ya akshaj! wish loads of happiness and fortune for you my baby!! ^_^ MUUAHHH.

this is him :D

i cant stop grinning

Hell down under.!!

oh god, the media overhypes EVERYTHING. these people attackin indians are just a bunch of drunken teenagers who need attention cos they fail at life in general.

i mean honestly, anti social elements exist EVERYHWERE. just cos these recent attacks have come under bright, harsh light doesnt necessarily mean australia as a nation is RACIST. all those people hating on australia... PLEASE GROW UP, there's racism everywhere including india where the skin whitening products are a very major industry, and brides are selected by their color and it makes me sick how there were disputes recently in the IPL cos of preferential treatment of white cheerleaders as opposed to black.

racism does exist, and the reason behind some of these attacks maybe the same
but you know what you're not gonna be told about some australian guy being attacked by the same gang bcos right now all ppl are focussin on is cruel treatment of indians.

don't lets label each other just because what some of our nations' unthinking uneducated assholes do.

randomness rocks.

Hello peoplez. I wonder what all of you have been upto and whether any1 actually bothers to read all this stuff I post!

So, it's Valentine Day!

BLahhh. Not like it matters.

I'm bored.

I just had cheese sandwich and a totally firey hot soup that has my throat burning till now.

Loved it.

I love FRIENDS. The serial. It's like family to me. yea, talk about being obsessed.

I like Poetry too. It gives hope sometimes.

ANDDDD I'm bored.

It's valentine day.

Not like it matters. =/

See ya.

I've got a reason to live; i dont wanna be in love.

Alright. I'm gonna get this out of my system. It's been too long alone with these stupid painful thoughts now.

I've come to realize over the past few years that I'm as normal as normal can be. Nah, not normal when it comes to general behaviour in the society where normalness is DEMANDED and NECESSARY, but abso-fucking-lutely normal when it comes to silly old messed up teenage emotions. Meaning to say, while for all these years I lived in the blissful notion that I was capable of NOT falling in love with someone who wasnt the perfect one, I was wrong. OH, so wrong. As it has happened to teenagers before, and will keep happening to teenagers till civilisation lasts, except to those who are able to, I dont know, CONTROL who they like i.e. are sensible and mature as I THOUGHT i was, people will FALL in PUPPY love, it WILL hurt and spoil some percent of their everday lives, it WILL force bitter tears out of their eyes, tears of jealousy when the rascal as much as flirts with other girlz, or tears of pain that he doesnt like them back or whatever. It WILL make people day dream ALL day long about him/her and it WILL make people show up late to school. It WILL make their attention spans towards physics and chemistry half of earlier, unless it is physics of the person's body or chemistry between the two lovers.

Damn fuckking it. I dont wanna be in love. It HURTS.

Now listening: I dont wanna be in love- Gud charlotte

Now reading: Jane Eyre- Charlotte Bronte

Now wanting: Emotional range of a teaspoon.

My skool's annual function

Heya peepz. ! So my annual fucntion is going on right now and by that I mean it's conducted for 2 days- today was the first, for people of middle and primary wings while tomorrow's gonna be the main thing. . .

well anyway Im wearin a sari. . . its not as bad as i thot it would be !! I look pretty, if other people are to be belived. anyway i hav a lot to be thankful for since EVERYTHING was arranged at the last moment. the outfit, i mean. mom was so angry last night cuz i had no sari to wear till the veyr last mo'. Had ta borrow it from a friend. Anyway . . . i AM a very big procratsinator. might make suffer some time so i'd better watch out. . .

anyway, damn Im gonna miss teh free periods we had during this tym. . .
specially when we went to the sit of the fucntion the whole day and practised ! ! not only was it fun, i could do a lot of interactions with a lot of people. . . some of which im gonna treasure till a long time into teh future !! ;)

anyhow we hav farwell soon for class 12th. letz see wot we do then.!

now listening to : teh wind howling like crazy outside
now reading: memoiers of a geisha
now wanting: tshirt. ;p and some sleep. im TIRED after a whole day of the fcuntion.!

see ya then.
x0

It's a weird world...!

Guess what's the latest trick my clever parents have been upto?

They HID my bicycle.. (a purple colored highly lady like, Ladybird which I'm not very fond of [read: hate the stinking guts of, if it has any] ). Well, I dont even know why I'd let them buy it to me. I mean I sulked at the shop and pulled such a long face it almost touched the floor! I wanted a male-ish [or at least a neutral] cycle but they dint buy it cuz it wuld "give me troubles getting off in emergenices" or in other words, hit me where it hurts.

Anyway, so I got that cycle and we came home and from that day onwards I started riding it, wishing every day it would get damaged or whatever so I could get a new one (this tym of my choice)

ANDDD it did get stolen a few days ago, except it DIDNT'! M y parents hid it to make me realize my mistake. Which would be: Not parking it inside the garage. There's a LOT of thefts going on here and it's absolutely stupid of me to leave it in the open. You see, i dint care if it did get stolen.!

SO they acted like they were really angry at me and all and started scaring me about walking to tuts now that I had lost my 'treasure'...and me? You wont even believe how happy I was! I mean I was internally blessing the thief.! :P

AND finally, seein I had no remorse whatsoever, my parents told me the truth. Bursting my bubble of happiness and hope.

DARN IT!

So I'm still riding the old ladybird.

Anyway, all I wanna say is... STOP PLAYING CRUEL JOKES WITH ME! X-(

Now listenting: TO MY NEW WALKMAN PHONE! WOOHOO!
Now reading: A Child Called 'It'
Now wanting: A little more time on here ... grr!